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It has to stop
Mar. 11th, 2022 11:32 pmMy mom and I had another talk.
It was about my little brother. Just a while back, I updated him with all the finances and informed him that I kept using his card which, my fault, I have told him that I will try to protect it at all cost but sadly, was not.
When he mentioned in chat that he wanted to use the money that we have for his spending money and the one he earns as his savings, to be honest, I was quite conflicted. Why? First was I thought someone could finally help us with our finances. But also, I must blame myself for being super loose with my finances. I have my faults, but I am sad that if I will not tell my mom about it, she'll be left in the dark.
I do regret I told mom, but she has to know. In short, both of us ARE the breadwinners of this family. Its just sad...
Now, I need to work double time and focus on my licensure. Unfortunately, as much as I want to be positive on focus on my reviews I am sad as well. Today I totally denounce the idea of buying fandom goods. I totally denounce myself to things that would make me happy. I have accepted the fact that I was born to be sad. However, I need to cheer myself up so us not to fall into depression.
I look forward to better days. I look forward to the day that I shall not be shackled with petty problems such as money. Maybe, this hurts, but I look forward to a time that I shall no longer root for Ryo...
It was about my little brother. Just a while back, I updated him with all the finances and informed him that I kept using his card which, my fault, I have told him that I will try to protect it at all cost but sadly, was not.
When he mentioned in chat that he wanted to use the money that we have for his spending money and the one he earns as his savings, to be honest, I was quite conflicted. Why? First was I thought someone could finally help us with our finances. But also, I must blame myself for being super loose with my finances. I have my faults, but I am sad that if I will not tell my mom about it, she'll be left in the dark.
I do regret I told mom, but she has to know. In short, both of us ARE the breadwinners of this family. Its just sad...
Now, I need to work double time and focus on my licensure. Unfortunately, as much as I want to be positive on focus on my reviews I am sad as well. Today I totally denounce the idea of buying fandom goods. I totally denounce myself to things that would make me happy. I have accepted the fact that I was born to be sad. However, I need to cheer myself up so us not to fall into depression.
I look forward to better days. I look forward to the day that I shall not be shackled with petty problems such as money. Maybe, this hurts, but I look forward to a time that I shall no longer root for Ryo...
